So I am starting to write a book.....here it goes. Its going to blogged piece by piece as it comes to me....
She was doomed from the time of conception. Destined to be in a world where there never seems to be a means to an end or satisfaction from being satisfied. Both her parents to young to even know what proper parenting was, grandparents far too gone from the present, that the past is all they seem to revel in, and a family that seemed to be made up of every personality disorder the DSM can explain. Like most kids, her youthful innocence remained with her for quite some time. She was always told that there is someone out there who is worse off than you. She accepted it and made the best out of the life she was given. She didn't complain much, took what her "parents" said to heart, and tried to succeed at everything she did. But as she would come to learn, her best was never good enough, the world never happy, and she gets the bad end of it all.
March 4, 1986:
She is born to a mother still in high school herself. Her father's parents has too high hopes for him, and blames her mother for the situation. They decide for him that he is too young to be a father and decides he can't be in this child's life. The child, just out of the womb is naturally unaware of all of this. But as she grows older, wishes she could have been aware, and would have rather known then than now, and made a decision then instead of now.
April 16, 1990:
She just turned 4 and a month later is still surprised by all the gifts she received. She is saving her special Panda Bear cake she get for a special occasion. She checks on it daily in the freezer making sure her grandfather didn't sneak a bite out of his ear as he jokingly said he would. She doesn't know the effect now, but she remembers her mother being late. The fun started without her.
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